Why the 1st of January isn't JUST ANOTHER DAY.

    Sometimes it feels over hyped. The super expensive parties and the expensive dresses and suits, or even the count downs , why do people need to be so excited for the clock to strike 12 ? doesn't that happen everyday? But still it makes them SO happy.

I like to look at each year as a way of judging whether or not my life is amazing or below average. I like to reflect on my past year and use the concept of 'a year' to measure and contrast and compare things, particularly my standards of fun-ness and my growth as a human being.

So let's first start with 2013.. I don't want to give too many details because then people would figure out who I am and the entire idea of an anonymous blog would be lost.

I was in school, pretty lost in terms of understanding myself but I worked hard at my studies , not very hard but more than usual , in terms of football it was the best year for me, I improved a lot and we also placed 3rd at the state level. I had a boyfriend who wasn't exactly right for me which did mess stuff up a bit but it fueled me to achieve a lot more than I intended on as a defense mechanism. I'm still friends with him though. I achieved things I didn't think i could but on an average I wasn't the happiest. I hated my art teacher, he picked on me though i can safely say i was one of the best in the class. I was very unsure of what I wanted to do with my time and the kind of people I wanted to be friends with, but I did make about 3 strong friends who I still talk to regularly.

Now 2014...

I went on camps. 2 of them, these were unlike any other camps i had ever been on, on the first i learnt a little about myself , I learnt how to be more comfortable, The second camp on the other hand was where i learnt what roughing it out meant for 11days I slept in uncomfortable tents, I peed in a bus , I showered in a stream at 11pm when it was about 7 degrees, I realized i never forgot how to ride a bike and  I tried kayaking and swimming in a river, but most importantly i learnt how to take a dump in a shared toilet, with boys around. And now I can safely say I am more comfortable with taking a dump in public places if i really need to go.

I learnt to not let my art teacher bring me down, I learnt how to combine my need for excitement and craziness with my love for art by painting murals all over my balcony and in my friends houses and now college as well, I graffittied publically  on roads and learnt not to ever use acrylic based spray cans because they all peeled off in one rain. I learnt that i had courage to be a go-getter and not have an ordinary life.

I fell in love with someone who is right for me and makes me more happy than sad and has taught me to love myself and not be guilty when I'm unreasonable or illogical and is patient with me even when i am and never gives up on me. He's so similar to me yet so different. If you're reading this, a lot of stuff has gotten messed up, but we never gave up  and that's what matters, and that bad stuff may have hurt me way too much, but I can safely say that all the amazing moments we've shared has stacked up to a bigger pile than all those negative emotions have, Thank you for constantly reminding me that I'm special through all the tiny things you do, It means more than you'll ever know, and I've changed so much as a human being because of you.

I changed in the sense that I only surround myself with people who appreciate me and instead of trying to fit in I try showing people who I really am in the hope that i'll attract people who are like me. I'm not as shy anymore, I feel like my social needs have been met and they don't feel hard to maintain because I just have to be myself. I became more independent and learnt how to use trains, I stopped being a baby, I went to goa with my friends and had way too much fun, I went to poona and learnt  how to lie.

On an average I didn't change my personality as drastically, I just learnt how to be more comfortable with myself and love myself, I started going to college and I was put in situations with no authority figures that have control over me and I still didn't do so bad, I start taking initiative and getting things done.

So for 2015 my only resolution Is to make the next year better than this one just like how 2014 was better than 2013.

Note to my heart - Sorry you had a rough time in the past few years, aren't you so happy that this year was so good? I promise to be better to you in 2015 , you deserve it, thank you for being so strong for me.

To my head- Thank you for taking care of my heart, I promise to make you stronger so I can be more rational, but listen to my heart once in a while too, I think she knows exactly what I want because it's easier to lie to you than to her.

K. I'm done now. This post was really long, thank you if you actually read it.

xoxo

Princess

My Reviews of Android Games.

1. Candy Crush Saga :
                                

Easily the best Android Game in my opinion. It works on the basis of giving the Gamer a constant sense of achievement.

The game involves matching 3-5 similar candies in a row to make them either disappear or form a new 'Special" candy, that can be further used to clear out more candies. It has a wide variety of levels that stretch beyond 600 and every few levels have a new obstacle that make them harder but you get a new booster everyday so that after a long amount of time you finally manage to pass all of them. It has a limit of 5 lives after which you need to wait a while to get a new life or your facebook friends can send you lives.

On a personal note - time flies so quick when I play this game , it's best for when you're stuck in a long line or in a waiting room. The only drawbacks I can think of is that i runs down your phone battery so you may have to charge it twice a day instead of one and your non-candy crush friends would get annoyed if you keep sending them invites on facebook.

It's easily one of 'King's' best games though most of them are pretty similar and based on similar concepts but you get '3 Lollipop Hammers' and a new set of 5 lives on Candy Crush if you play  levels of any of King's other games. King has really been minting money through this game.

2. Daddy Long Legs

Wow. Okay. Just downloaded this game, and I can't decide if i love it or hate it. Here's why-
So you know how people said flappy bird was annoying and addictive? This game takes that to a whole new level. I genuinely admire the simplicity and intelligence behind this game.

Daddy Long Legs was a sort of spider that had enormous legs and a tiny body, so i guess the cartoon you see above is supposed to be a spider?

The objective of this game is simple, you have to make 'Daddy Long Legs' walk as far as possible with well timed taps on your phone/ tablet screen , failing to do this makes him wobble and fall like he's on stilts, no levels but If you fall on a package you can get new clothes and a new look for your character.

I definitely recommend this game as a source of entertainment if you don't have exams or any important work to do :P



(I'll add more reviews in a bit :D )

Why I Respect Fastrack As A Brand

I always admired their advertisements because they seemed daring and bold, right from supporting homosexuality and 'coming out of the closet,

to their slogan ' Move On' , which supports being rebellious by saying it is okay to consistently be inconsistent. This brand has never failed to go against the traditional idea of 'acceptable behavior' , and their latest slogan 'Sorry for What?' encourages people to be unapologetic for setting their own standards of acceptability right from their bold visuals of girls with hairy armpits to women shaving their heads

 and men with thongs.

I respect it most because it's used for advertising and there's probably a large majority that would not agree with it, but that's exactly what the brand aims at - changing those thoughts and making being true to yourself acceptable.

This advertisement reaches beyond limits that normal advertisements would go to but it touches the emotions of fun-loving bratty teenagers who believe in living on the edge perfectly.

On a more personal note - I never raise my arms if I haven't waxed for a while and I would cringe at the thought of other girls not doing that as well, but I guess time will change everything and everyone.

ADVICE COLUMN

Okay, So I've been told that I give good advice and since I'm highly passionate about Psychology and people I thought I should make an advice column for my blog so that I can reach out to people I don't know and help them to the best of my abilities.

So I enabled Anonymous comments on my blog so you can just comment on this post with questions and I'll answer it to the best of my abilities or maybe someone else who's been in the same position as you could help you out as well.

So vent and rant away , I'm always ready to listen and unlike counseling this is absolutely free of cost so you technically have nothing to loose. So let's go..

xoxo
Princess.

Gender

A wise boy once said to me that gender is a concept imposed by society.

Let me start by explaining the the concept, Sex is biological and based on genitals, a penis makes you male and a vagina makes you a female and then there are also transvestites.

Gender is merely a stereotype that you choose to conform to for example : I'm a girl so I should wear pink and have a squeaky voice and be delicate. Gender is a concept that needs to be removed. What is most necessary is that your Sex should not be a barrier when you want to make decisions and It should not interfere when you are being judged. Gender as a concept should be removed because people should be encouraged to be whoever they want to be, men can be delicate and women can be manly without needing to feel like they're doing something wrong and at the same time women should not feel like they are being un-empowered because they like to be taken care of occasionally and men should be able to want to be taken care off without feeling like they are 'not wearing the pants in the relationship'

So now instead of telling people to 'stop acting gay' and 'man-up' and stop being so 'manly' you can encourage people to stay true to themselves because that is the only way people actually become happy and content with their lives because only when you present yourself to the world without being superficial and fake is when you attract people who are like you and only then can you lead a fun life.

Reviewing Youtubers : iisuperwomanii and Kanan Gill

Since I've spent half my life on Youtube.com I figured I should write a post reviewing my favorites so here goes:

1. IISuperwomanII

Easily my favouritest. Not only is she highly entertaining for Indians but she also has a loveable strong personality where she teaches you to embrace the weird side you have. Her 'Annoying People' and Indian Parent imitation videos are by far her best.

Videos I recommend:

1. Awkward Massage - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kF0ZM7cp_0s&list=UUfm4y4rHF5HGrSr-qbvOwOg

2. If My Parents Were YouTubers - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1sGfXRloub8&list=UUfm4y4rHF5HGrSr-qbvOwOg

3. How To Be Good Parents - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w41j3Uc1C58&index=33&list=UUfm4y4rHF5HGrSr-qbvOwOg

add her on snapchat : iisuperwomanii

2. Kanan Gill

This Standup Comedian/ Youtuber stole a lot of girls heart with his hilarious Pretentious Movie Reviews, where he and another man called Biswas review old hindi movies and ridicule them. He gets extra brownie points for his creativity. He may not be as good as compared to other Youtubers but a Pretty Face with a good sense of humor and charm is sometimes all you need.  I also met him after one of his shows at The Canvas Laugh Club and he was very down to earth and appreciative of all his fans and no fan girl left without a selfie and a hug, he definitely left us all feeling very special.

Videos i recommend :

!. MOST PAAGAL EVER - Rudraksh Review- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VGF3Wgb67mI&list=UU5W8kZaY_u59fwgtjnLrBXA&index=5

2. MOST SNAKES EVER - Tum Mere Ho Review - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0n7OWo4Sr6U&list=UU5W8kZaY_u59fwgtjnLrBXA&index=8

 

3. MOST EXERCISE EVER - Prem Aggan Review -https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mA1LQRBA6es&list=UU5W8kZaY_u59fwgtjnLrBXA&index=14

4. MOST VALUES EVER - Hum Saath Saath Hain Review - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3UWDjBZ_Ncg&index=15&list=UU5W8kZaY_u59fwgtjnLrBXA

5. Aabra Ka Daabra Review - MOST PARLE G EVER-  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uEK5srsN73w&index=16&list=UU5W8kZaY_u59fwgtjnLrBXA

6. MOST ACTING EVER -Main Prem Ki Diwani Hoon Review- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7sV6UPJa0DI&index=19&list=UU5W8kZaY_u59fwgtjnLrBXA

7.  Okay it's safe to say all the movie reviews.

8. How To Pick Up Women - Bangalore Edition- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B6XKv7V30Wk&list=UU5W8kZaY_u59fwgtjnLrBXA&index=23

9. Bangalore on Homosexuality- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NC2balpmYD8&index=25&list=UU5W8kZaY_u59fwgtjnLrBXA

10. Bangalore on Politics - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zdwk_pW-cMc&list=UU5W8kZaY_u59fwgtjnLrBXA&index=26 

Comparing School and College

COMPARING SCHOOL AND COLLEGE

                                       People often text me and ask me how college is, and i don't know how to explain myself. School had this security and comfort of being around people you have grown up with and teachers who know you by name, but there is something comforting in the fact that you can loose that security and still be okay. It's your choice as to whether you wish to have spare time or not and it is what you do with that time that matters.

It's easy for me to be myself because i feel like there is a lot of people who accept me and appreciate me for being myself, everyone's just fun loving people who don's take anything too seriously, it's way easier to talk to people also and things are different coming from a highly sheltered background but there's something about taking trains and buses that feels good, like you don't need to depend on other people too much. There's very few superficial people in college, almost none, no one cares enough to gossip about you if they don't know you and they are more accepting. I guess everyone needs a change in atmosphere.


But i still miss the sense of dependability that i had with school people , it's hard to know who you can depend on in college and i guess that will come with time.

My Bucket List

Lol, i just noticed the amount of negativity on my page so i've decided to brighten it up. Bucket Lists are the best way to deal with relationship issues, petty problems and lack of productivity. So here goes :

1. Paint a wall in college
2. Go to college drunk/tipsy
3. Double Decker Bus ride :$
4. A massive game of Chor Police/ Hide and Seek around Mumbai with LOADS of people
5. Covering a marble floor with soap and water and sliding on it.

I'll update this with time

Accomplishments:
1. Picked up a traffic cone
2. Graffiting stuff

Suggestions in the comments section would be highly appreciated.

Rape

 Rape isn't an act, the act is sexual intercourse. Rape is more an emotion.

An emotion of disgust, of viewing yourself more like a body than a soul. It is the feeling of having your emotions abused, as if you don't matter.. you're just a body. You feel tarnished, and injured, dirty, filthy in places that can't be cleaned. Your heart is filthy and injured and there's no way to fix it or cover it or heal it.

You can't look at movies, the kissing and romantic scenes seem repulsive, and fake, like that's the only thing humans want. You can't let another person touch you because you're paranoid, you need love and affection but you're petrified of being touched, you're paranoid and skeptical, ESPECIALLY of the nicest people, they're surely up to something.

Still think tiny clothes means a girl is inviting rapes onto herself? Yeah because every girl is dying to be raped right? WRONG, no one wants to be raped, women want to be admired for their beauty and wit and personality , not viewed as a commodity with only one sole purpose.

It's time our society stopped judging people based on clothes, piercings , hair colour, tattoos , number of female or male friends etc. Rape occurs because of sick minds, it doesn't matter on your body type or looks or clothes, it doesn't differ from burkhas to saris to kurtas to jeans to shorts. Rape is rape and it attacks everyone and doesn't have favourites or show partiality, all it takes is a dirty mind and a vulnerable target.

Carry pepper spray and teach your kids to be non- violent and compassionate.

Depression

Disclaimer : This post is not applicable to me personally, and it is merely to raise awareness


Depression is a psychological disorder associated with sadness and it has several symptoms with which it can be identified, such as lack of goal directed activities and a lack of passion, too much sleep.. too little sleep, binge eating.. starving.. sudden increase in weight, sudden loss in weight and guilt , lots and lots of guilt and delusions.

People often deal with this through various (ineffective) defense mechanisms. One of them is Intellectualization. This involves looking at a stimulus that makes you sad in a highly mechanical, intellectual and non emotional way, as though the problem does not involve you. People go about intellectualization by describing the disorder and it's symptoms .. and ways to deal with it.

It doesn't matter how many times you have read about this in your psychology textbooks, because a list of symptoms can't make you empathize if you haven't felt it. Imagine wanting to die, it won't even matter because no one would feel bad if you did, not your teachers who are too angry with you for not studying because your too busy being upset, not your family who thinks you're constantly unreasonable, and friends? what friends?.. The Life Instinct drives all our activities and desires, it is essential to live, imagine that transforming into The Fear of Life, And did i mention guilt?

The worst part is, it can be cured, but then there's the taboo of going to counselors, and the sky high prices of sessions. Seems like a big trap doesn't it? and then we laugh at suicide victims and call them weak.

Be compassionate, for everyone you know is fighting a battle that you have absolutely no idea about and you don't know how much more 'hate' might be needed to tip them over the edge, do kind things for loved ones and strangers and sometimes a hug is all you need to put all your broken pieces together.

Love

Dear Diary,

Comparing Adult Love and Adolescent Love:



Disclaimer: These are my opinions and experiences, i don't expect the reader to agree.

Okay so i'm only 18 and there isn't much i understand about this kind of stuff considering my longest relationship has been 5 months(and counting) but i should point out some differences I have noticed.

The ability to be myself - as cliched as it sounds, i have only recently understood the importance of this with my newest relationship, there is something so liberating about being weird and burps and weird noises and awkward situations feeling normal and okay and comfortable. I think comfort is most necessary, comfort in being yourself, because relationships are meant to make things easier and make you love yourself. That being said, like life relationships aren't all sunshine and butterflies, sometimes you fight and argue, sometimes for a long amount of time , but you can't be making a big deal out of that, it's just something you have to accept because you need to see the other person at their best and worst. So in conclusion, growing older makes you choose people who provide you with comfort and you stop looking at tiny materialistic things like looks and body type. Broke up with someone or got dumped? it's okay that person probably wasn't the best person for you and at least now you know what you don't want in a relationship so someday you will be clear about what you do want.

In general, I don't know if love can be defined or if it is even a concept. Usually people refer to it as 'liking' (infatuation) and love. I'm just going to refer to it as immature love and mature love. Mature love is less of the butterflies and nervousness and sweaty palms and stuttering and it's more like protectiveness and you protect your 'partner' like you would protect your family, you may fight with your family and not get along with them but at the end of the day you still love them and they love you and you'd probably do anything for them because they're pretty much irreplaceable and permanent, but the person you are in love with is a lot different from your family in the sense that their eyes could still make you melt and obvious other physical aspects that every romantic relationship consists of, the difference is also that you don't choose your family members but a partner is out of choice hence you strive to find your 'puzzle piece' or 'soul mate.'

The eaziest way to get a girlfriend or boyfriend is by not doing anything at all and staying true to yourself because once you present yourself to the world , you will automatically be attracted to people who are like you.

22/11/2014

Dear Diary,
                 I thought i'd start off by being true to myself, so here goes.
About me :
1. I'm compassionate, not necessarily because i care for others or because i'm a saint, it is because i understand how people feel because I can empathize with them, doesn't mean i'm not nasty sometimes or unnecessarily mean , but in a way that's good  right? because at least I'm aware of my tastes and preferences and I'm not fake.
2. I over think everything, maybe because I need to come to peace with certain things. I can't be perfect and I can't change in a jiffy, I can't please everyone in the world because 7 billions a big number. You know the problem with human beings? They run after happiness , trying to always be happy, you see someone being happy 24/7? Yeah that's a facade. You can't always be happy because then happiness won't exist, Is life really fun and exciting when everything goes your way? Are relationships worth it without arguments and it's fluctuating ups and downs? The ups make you feel the love but the downs just confirm it because it helps clear the air and shows you that the other person isn't going to give up that easily, Sometimes having things worth fighting for shows you they're worth it.
3. My Fears - Being disapproved off by people. Not having friends or people to depend on. Being unloved without social company, Feeling like the entire world except me is having fun. With time I am slowly learning that instead of trying to be a person that people like I should focus more on being myself and seeing if others approve of me. Do i crave affection? yes. Can I be demanding ? yes. Do I have unrealistic expectations? yes. Do I chase people ? yes. Do i get jealous and insecure? yes yes yes. Is that okay? maybe.

I can't help that i crave affection so what should i do ? go out and get some by treating people the way i want to be treated. I am demanding , but am i as demanding as other people or more or less? how do you measure demandingness and be able to tell what is the right amount? Is it wrong to want love and security? Or wanting to get what you deserve? Sometimes it burdens you and yourself to be unrealistic but its okay , we just need to accept that stuff can't always go our way or we won't be thankful and appreciative and respectful when it does. I chase people because I'm sure of what i want and when i want someone i try to keep them around, all i have to do now is be myself and treat them the way i want to be treated. I get jealous because self esteem constantly fluctuates from situation to situation and sometimes people are better than you and worse than you in certain aspects, doesn't mean you aren't a beautiful unique human being.

Maybe these are just defence mechanisms, but bottom line it is necessary to be yourself and not lie to yourself and accept the way you feel without trying to cover it up to make yourself feel better because you only truly feel good and strong when you stay yourself and are proud of yourself despite forces making you change in order to be desirable by society.

xoxo
my head to my heart and my heart to my head.